New Year's Resolutions

Soothsayer has beaten me to coming up with the blog entry on his new year's resolution(s). It's already the 9th day into 2006, I guess it's time or never. Though he's is but a sole proclamation of his renewed way of handling, or speaking to so to speak, idiots, mine do not include such (I'm luckier not to have that any idiots, or am I just more tolerant in that scale?) but just a few seedlings of what I have in mind.

A couple days' ago I confided in noodle and told her that I have a strong feeling 2006 is going to be different. Different in the way that you feel renewed and want things to happen. Particularly, things that have been bugging at the back of your head and you thinking maybe it aint so bad putting it off just a little bit more, just a little bit more... (like the song from Play)

First milestone is of course, this little baby I have here. I went through 2005 with so many thoughts and things to write about - somehow just couldn't have the time to record them but have the time to finish reading 12.75 books. It was nice when I have noodle - my other real, and of course most important baby :P - around for we'd have such mental discussion and arguments at times. I even nicked her the "walking google", 2nd in-line to the real thing :). Though my thoughts may just be ramblings, commonplace proses of my mundane life or even just rubbish like that from Soothsayer's little idiot, it shall be my own pensieve, a well of things to be kept for remembrance and a tracking device for everything happening in and around me.

Second of all is something the average joe puts off so easily, day in and day out. Average-joe-no-more, I told myself when I enrolled into a gym with noodle just a few weeks back. And even if I am outstation, I will look into the local gyms wherever I may be. Things could've been so much easier if not for my lousy pes planus problem (of course, that may very well be an excuse - a painful one!) that makes it hard for me to jog, which I kinda like - the jogging, not the pain! So by the end of 2006, 10kgs off the scale? Hmmm, maybe make it a liiiitle bit more realistic - 5kgs, for I am not delusional :p. Period.

Next is something much closer to my heart. For I feel that I have gone through so many years without really getting close to the people who matters most to me. My mum particularly, for her I miss the most when I away from my hometown, and my dad who has always been a fortress which I cannot, or dare not or haven't tried hard enough, to enter. Yeah we do talk on the phone, but I have never confided in them. Except, for the that very night that changed my life forever as I live it today - that rainy night when I expelled my Other from my life, and followed my heart all the way to P.D. without a blink of thought. I want change, I want to be closer to them. And I just don't want to spend my life away just working for the money but to spend more time with noodle - my love, my heartbeat, my closest friend and confidant - not just being away and virtually there but yet not at all, esp. in times of need, security or just having plain dolly fun.

And Noodle promised me a visit to the spa. I dearly hope that it is going to be in this year round. Otherwise, I would just whisk her off one day to one and get ourselves pampered and that soreness off-a our shoulders!

13 novels changed me in some ways or others in 2005. I hope that number will not be a constant in time to come. Already 4 books I packed from the 24-hour *gasp* bookshop in Taipei! God, my bibliophilic days will really get me broke soon enough...

From today onwards, I shall live my life as my own. And no more to only please others around me, nor ever compromise my own happiness for the sake of others'. While I shall maintain my truest self and form, best as I can do, I will learn to be stronger and more assertive. How someone sees me should be less important to me than how well I love myself (borrowed and paraphrased from Soothsayer's inspiring words *winks).

So is 2006 going to be different or as extraordinary as the bold promises I declare? I guess we'll just see. 31st day into the 12 month then - it's a date.

"So we think so much about money and our plans for acquiring it that we discover that we're alive only when our days on earth are practically done. And then it's too late."

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Last paragraph scripts are excerpts from BY THE RIVER PIEDRA I SAY DOWN AND WEPT by the great Paulo Coelho.