Romancing ∙ the ∙ Prose: April 2008

20080308
Kuching
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My baby, I don't know where you are and when you're reading this exactly, I just hope that you're happy and healthy. And safe too. I am writing this, because I am constantly reminded by what you said about having a time machine to turn back time, and forth - back, so that you can tell your old self to do many things in so many different ways, reinventing yourself and your decisions; forth, so that you'll be assured that you will turn out alright in the future.

Then I remember you asking me what I'd do. I didn't answer you truthfully, because I didn't think you want to hear my answer then. Perhaps, in better words, it was because I didn't want to see you react the way I know you would had you have heard my answer then. You see, if I have had a time machine, I'd go back in time, indeed, not to change anything but to revisit the wonderful moments we have shared together. I have no desire to change anything in my past, for everything that happened, every single revelation and mistake that I made, every tear in my heart and every tear I have caused in others', transpired the subsequent events that led me to you. Didn't it? No, I wouldn't change anything at all. Whatever I had gone through, were all picture perfect with you in them.

You cried and said that you wouldn't be able to go on alone. You can, baby. You can. You're strong and brave and you can get through this. We shared many beautiful moments together, and you made my life, you have made my life wholesome. I have no regret, at all. But what I am, is just a chapter in your life, and though it may seem not quite possible to you now, there will be many more in your life. Remember our wonderful memories, but please don't be afraid to make some more.

20080417
KL
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Living without you is much more difficult than I ever thought. You are right, every dust and particle in the house, every thing from pieces of paper to the half used tube you left behind, remind me of you. I have tidied our room but have yet found the courage to sleep in it. Perhaps only now I have descended to the troughs and valleys of this break-up. But like I said, I will be fine, for this break up is but due to my being. I have to be. And seeing you around sometimes, makes me sour and relieved at the same time. Relieved that you look fine, sour because you look just so fine.

I am not saying I regret what happened to us. No, and I believe everything happens for a reason. This break up has taught me to cherish the people and the life that are truly precious to us, and not just the everyday chores and material things. Whether you have found the reason, whenever you need me, you know that I will be there for you. No matter what happens in my life or whoever I may be with, you will always be close in my heart and never a moment away from my thoughts.

Goodbye, and good luck, my baby.

|| Present Indulgence ||

Marley & Me

His tail hung flat between his legs, the first time I could remember it not wagging whenever he was touching one of us. His eyes were turned up to her, and he whimpered softly. She stroke his head a few times , and then with no warning, buried her face in the thick fur of his neck and began sobbing. Hard, unrestrained, from-the-gut sobbing.

|| Athenaeum ||

The Woman of Rome

Both of them loved me very much, and certainly would have preferred to possess me by legal means if they could, and would have secured for me that modest form of happiness that I have set my heart on. Fate, on the contrary, had led me, in my beauty, to the very men who could not obtain that kind of happiness for me. Unfortunately, even if there was no one to blame, there was most decidedly a victim, and that was myself.

The Historian

"My dear and unfortunate successor:
It is with regret that I imagine you, whoever you are, reading the account I must put down here. The regret is partly for myself - for I will surely be at least in trouble, maybe dead, or perhaps worse, if this is in your hands."

Rhadopis of Nubia

"The sight of her had everyone enthralled and stirred the waning hearts of tired old men. Fiery looks rained down on her from all directions, so hot that they would have melted slate had they encountered it on their way. Sparks of loathing flew from the women's eyes, and in whispers the discussion went from mouth to mouth among those standing around her: 'What an enchanting and seductive woman she is'.
'Rhadopis. They call her the mistress of the island.'"

By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

"But love is much like a dam: if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the dam, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current."

Greek Myths

"So there was Helen disembarking the ship, faced by Greeks with stones in their hands. What then? Desire, beholden to no one, overtook them. They dropped their stones in awe and longing."

The Silmarillion

"Far beneath the ruined halls of Angband, in vaults to which the Valar in the haste of their assault had not descended, Balrogs lurked still, awaiting ever the return of their Lord; and now swiftly they arose, and passing over Hithlum they came to Lammoth, as a tempest of fire."

Lolita

"Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta."

Romancing ∙ the ∙ Prose

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Goodbye...

|| About Me ||

Phantom78PETALING JAYA, SELANGOR, Malaysia

I am a multi-layered onion still unpeeling itself; and trying to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, to demand with all his might that which he desires.(more mundane details)

|| Present Indulgence ||

Marley & Me

|| Athenaeum ||

The Woman of Rome

The Historian

"My dear and unfortunate successor: It is with regret that I imagine you, whoever you are, reading the account I must put down here. The regret is partly for myself - for I will surely be at least in trouble, maybe dead, or perhaps worse, if this is in your hands."

Rhadopis of Nubia

By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

"But love is much like a dam: if you allow a tiny crack to form through which only a trickle of water can pass, that trickle will quickly bring down the dam, and soon no one will be able to control the force of the current."

Greek Myths

"So there was Helen disembarking the ship, faced by Greeks with stones in their hands. What then? Desire, beholden to no one, overtook them. They dropped their stones in awe and longing."

The Silmarillion

"Far beneath the ruined halls of Angband, in vaults to which the Valar in the haste of their assault had not descended, Balrogs lurked still, awaiting ever the return of their Lord; and now swiftly they arose, and passing over Hithlum they came to Lammoth, as a tempest of fire."

Lolita

"Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta."

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Phantom78
PETALING JAYA, SELANGOR, Malaysia

I am a multi-layered onion still unpeeling itself; and trying to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, to demand with all his might that which he desires.

(more mundane details)

"My dear and unfortunate successor:
It is with regret that I imagine you, whoever you are, reading the account I must put down here. The regret is partly for myself - for I will surely be at least in trouble, maybe dead, or perhaps worse, if this is in your hands."